A Change in Plans!

So, my Navy boyfriend broke up with me...I suppose that was a little soon anyways, we hardly knew each other. There were no hard feelings, we still talk occasionally. He is a good friend, dating was just a bad idea with so many miles between us. So that being said...

I've met someone else. He's wonderful, great, treats me amazing. Its so true, when one door closes, a window always opens. I have not been this happy in forever...So, I am not sure if I will be continuing this blog really....I never really got into it that much anyways....but life is amazing. I just want to tell anyone who happens upon it, don't give up. When you think your heart is broken and its not fair...there is always something around the corner. I am so blessed to have met this guy, and I plan on living in the moment with him, being with him as much as I can, enjoying our time together. So, goodbye for now, I may stop by occasionally with some updates! Thanks for reading!

I'm Stronger Than They Think

What a day! I am happy I am off tomorrow. Work is stressin me out. I just got promoted a few months ago and sometimes I just hope that I am doing everything good enough, lol. Life has been crazy lately. My sister got ran off the interstate yesterday by some crazy person. She was trying to merge onto the interestate and some guy got mad because she got in front of him and he hit her car three times, running her into a bunch of trees. Luckily she was okay and her car wasn't hurt that much, but seriously. I've heard of road rage, but that is just ridiculous.
Anyways, things are going good everywhere else. B. made it safely to A school and we have gotten to talk a lot! It is nice to hear his voice, but I keep writing him anyways...lol. I got so use to writing every night when I got home from work, it's just a habit now, I suppose. I miss him a lot. For awhile I felt like I was keeping my guard up, but not anymore. I was burned badly in my last relationship...and I haven't felt safe to date anyone in nearly two years. I loved my ex., we dated nearly four and a half years, and went through hell and high water. It wasn't all bad of course, it was one of those things of when it was good it was really good, and when it was bad it was terrible. When we broke up, I left that town and moved to L.R. with my family. Looking back I can see a hundred reasons why me and him weren't meant to be...we were both dreamers, both too passionate, we didn't balance each other very well. We both knew we wanted great things, but neither of us seemed to know what to do to make those things happen...and maybe we held each other back too. Since we parted we are both doing a lot better. I talked to a few people after him, but nothing serious. This is the first time in a long time that I actually feel like it may work, the first time in a long time that i've wanted it to work. So, some people think I am being irrational, or maybe too sudden, some think I shouldn't date someone that much younger than me....but B. and I are the only one's who can tell if this is right or not. I've been proposed to before, i've been engaged before, i've had opportunities to start a family long ago, but I didn't, something inside me just told me it wasn't the right time, it wasn't the right person....maybe because I was suppose to wait for B. So, we'll see how things go, I just pray for God's Will to be done...I will follow my heart, not everyone else's suggestions.

I think it's Going to Rain...

So, I got to hear from B. He's been calling me whenever he can, his family is up there for the moment and he is trying to spend as much time with them as possible before he has to leave them again. He will be in A school soon, and I think he is ready to get there. I am ready to see him, though I have no idea when I will be able to get out there.

Anyways, I am sitting here in L.R., watching the storm clouds invade the blue sky...it's about to rain and I welcome it. It is way to hot here and the breeze feels amazing. I've been off work the last three days and it was enjoyable. I've started three new books, lol, all I do is read, I really gotta find another hobby. And I caught up on sleep. As much as I like having time off, it drives me crazy, I really enjoy working and feeling productive. And i'm afraid I may have three days worth of work there waiting for me when I get back, lol...geez. O well, it will be fine.

So yesterday while I was sitting at a red light at a very busy intersection, I saw a glimpse of a rainbow really far away. And I looked around at all the people driving and in a hurry around me and I don't think anyone else really saw it, it seemed like it was just for me to see and I needed that little bit of hope. I've been stressed out lately and I worry way too much, but for just a moment I felt peaceful, even with all the traffic and road rage that was around me. It just felt like God was saying, "it's going to be just fine Tiff, just relax!"

Well, I guess that's enough rambling for the moment. I am about to head back home and do something with the rest of my day, lol, not sure what yet, but i'm sure i'll think of something:) Hope everyone has a great week!

My First Thursday Five!

SO! I am STILL trying to get into blogging! I have soooo much to learn, but I thought i'd def. do the Thursday 5 since I have a lot to be thankful for :)

All you hafta do is post 5 things that have made you:

Happy

Giddy

Joyful

Excited

Appreciative

Then go to Mannland5 and post your link!

So let's give this a go :)

I am so very happy that I am finally off work and that I don't have to go back till next Monday since it's my 3-day weekend! This past week has been crazy and I have worked extra hard to get everything done so that I wouldn't have to worry too much and enjoy my weekend.

I have been so giddy because I should soon be getting a phone call from B., who is in the Navy and graduating from basic training tomorrow. It's been a little over a month and a half since we've actually talked and i've missed him like crazy...been counting down the days :)

I am Joyful because my best friend that i've known since I was 4 is getting married soon and I will be going to visit her soon to decide on bridesmaid's dresses!

I am Excited because I am reading a great book, Wicked, it really gives you a whole different view of the Wizard of Oz story!

And FiNaLLy, I am Appreciative of my family that is so amazing. They are always supportive of my decisions and even though they can sometimes be a little hesitant about some of the decisions I make, they always stand behind me 100% and I couldn't imagine being blessed with a better family.

So, there are mine, your turn now :) Everyone have an AwEsOmE weekend!!

Finally, A Day Off!

Today has been pretty good :) I didn't have to work,although I still got called this morning and asked questions. I don't mind though, I was happy I didn't sleep all day. I got a letter from B. Monday, he hadn't gotten any of my letters at the time when he wrote me...it made me sad, I don't want him to think I have forgotten about him here, that is faaar from the truth. I got another letter from him today though, and he had gotten one of my letters, finally, (i've written a bunch!) and he was happy...I guess my letter had asked what our status was. We didn't have much time before he left and our time together was hurried, but we are def. dating, so I am happy! It is almost time for him to graduate, I am counting down the days!

So now I am at my parents, waiting for sister to get here so we can go swimming and lay out. I am such a bad influence. She is at work and I called and was like hey, are you feeling good, maybe you should leave and come go swimming with me...lol, so she said she would leave at 3 p.m. It's about 2 :40 p.m. now, so I should have to wait much longer. It is such a pretty day today, and it's not terribly hot either, amazing. I stepped outside, expecting to nearly drown in the humidity, and I was so suprised, the air was wonderful! (The heat has been ridiculous lately.) Well, I guess that's it for now, here's a pic of my sis and I! She is my all time best friend. She's six years younger, but I seriously couldn't imagine life without her, even though sometimes we get on each others nerves, that's normal. Hope everyone had a great day!
(She's the one on the right :)

Why do my thoughts constantly drift to him?

It's Sunday! Which makes me happy because I know he get's to write me today :) Wednesday will be even better because I will get his letter! I hate having to wait forever to hear from him, but it's so great to write letters. I have all these written words of how he feels and what he thinks...and in this world today I think that is rare. We all depend heavily on technology to communicate and I think the written word gets lost somewhere in there. I always like to think that I will have these letters to show my children one day, unlike text messages and phone calls. Now, don't get me wrong, everyday I wish my phone would ring and it would be B., but it's nice to have this time. I think that it has shown me something that I might not have seen before. I found a quote I really liked.

"Absense diminishes small love, and increases great ones, as the wind blows out the candle and blows up the bonfire."

I think it's true. I can't help but to think that this situation is what has really brought us together and shown us just how important we are to each other. I am nervous about "A" school. I keep telling him that if he thinks he wants to change his mind about us, he can, I feel bad since he is so much younger than me. (5 years) I just think about everything that happened to me during 21 to 26 and I hope he doesn't feel like he's missing out on anything. I guess time will tell, we are just going to take one day at a time. If anyone has any advice on this, I would greatly appreciate it! I probably just worry toooo much...but it's hard when you never get to see them, as i'm sure many of you know.

Well, work keeps me super busy, so I am distracted throughout the day which is a good thing :) And I hafta move from my apartment before this Wednesday. My sister and I just aren't happy there, so we are moving back in with our parents, (yea, I can't believe that either), for the moment til we can figure out what we want to do. I haven't even started packing yet!!!! About to go home right now and start, fun fun! Well, hope everyone has a SuPeR dAy!!

P.S. I am sooo new to this blog thing, any ideas or suggestions on how I can make it super cute, I would be forever grateful!! I'm a little lost :)

Adele - Chasing Pavements

I've always thought this video and song was kind of beautiful and unique...I haven't thought about it in awhile, but found it tonight when I was wondering around...just thought i'd share...

A few Random Thoughts...

I wish B. could come home after basic, even if it was just for a little bit. I am amazed really, every since my last relationship I have stayed away from relationships, I was scared to even try again. But now, something has happened and I am just crazy about B. I don't know how or when it happened, it just kinda occured overnight, and I love it. I am so blessed, I am so excited to see what will happen in our future together, but I am just taking it one day at a time and enjoying every little moment in our relationship. But sometimes I want to just scream from the top of a mountain, I am bubbling over with joy and it is such a great feeling. Ahhh, how boring this must be...lol, i'm sorry, I must sound like a lovesick puppy, but I am just happy and I just don't feel like anyone really understands... I am excited that I will hopefully get to talk to him soon, it will be wonderful to hear his voice again. It just feels like it's been so long, I mean yea it's only been like a month and a half since we've talked, but it seems like much longer. O well..this is short I know, but I am exhausted, had to work a 12 hour day, but I just needed to talk for a bit...Good Night!!

I Never Would Have Dreamed....

Hi everyone! Well, I am new to the blogging world, as you can probably tell from my blog soooo far! Don't worry, I'm sure I will catch on soon and I will def. customize more later... I have been reading so many peoples stories on here the past week, I just wanted to jump right in! I have so much to say, I don't even know really where to start, but here I go....
So, a little about myself. My name is Tiffany, I am 25 years old, and I am slowly, but very surely falling in love with a soon to be sailor. Our story. We met years ago, we use to work together. I never thought twice about him then, he was like 17 and I was 22. We were friends and both were in relationships. He was still in high school, dealing with the high school drama, and I was in college dealing with the college drama. I left that little town in the middle of my last semester of college when my live in boyfriend and I broke up...we tried to live together broken up, yea that DOESN'T work, lol. Eventually other girls started to come see him and we made each other miserable. So I left town and moved to another city and created another life. Fast forward nearly two years. So I was on facebook a couple of months ago, and B. popped up and asked me if we could hang out one day when he got to visit home from the Navy. (He was leaving for basic in two weeks or so). I didn't think twice about it really, but I was like "Sure, sounds great!" lol, and that's how it all started. We exchanged phone numbers, a ton of text messages, and hours of late night hours on the phone before he left for basic. He also came to visit me, we went to see a movie and he never let go of my hand... The night before he left for Chicago, he actually had to spend the night in the city I live in...his hotel was about 5 min from my apartment, so we got to see each other that night too...suddenly there were butterflies where there use to be nothing. I was freaked, but strangely happy.
Since he has left, I think I have written him everyday. Every Wednesday I can't wait to get a letter from him...he graduates soon and will be going to A school in South Carolina, so at least we will get to talk then, although I have enjoyed writing him letters and getting letters! I miss his voice... I was hesitant to do this blog, I don't want to jinx us...but we've talked and I think this is going to go far. We just feel that God has a hand in me and him meeting again...there's a reason for everything. I have read so many blogs about women married to men in the military and I have to admit, before this, I had never really thought about that before. I had never thought about being married to a military man, living the military life...so the past week I started doing a lot of research and what I have found is this whole network of women who support each other, who are there for one another...women who have become friends. I guess I am just trying to prepare myself as much as I can for this lifestyle that I may very well be living in the next year or so... I know this will be hard and I know that I will miss him so much when he's working. I have talked to a lot of my friends about this and they think I am crazy. It's not a life many women want, and B. has told me numerous times that he would understand if I chose to walk away and find another man to love who can be there for me all the time. But, i've thought a lot about it and our connection is getting stronger everyday that passes...and I would , hands down, rather live in a world where I would get to have him some of the time, than live in one without him in it at all...so I have made my choice and I stand by it and I will stand by my Sailor through his career...it's just beginning and it's going to be one heck of a ride, i'm sure, but i've got my seatbelt on and i'm ready!