What a day! I am happy I am off tomorrow. Work is stressin me out. I just got promoted a few months ago and sometimes I just hope that I am doing everything good enough, lol. Life has been crazy lately. My sister got ran off the interstate yesterday by some crazy person. She was trying to merge onto the interestate and some guy got mad because she got in front of him and he hit her car three times, running her into a bunch of trees. Luckily she was okay and her car wasn't hurt that much, but seriously. I've heard of road rage, but that is just ridiculous.
Anyways, things are going good everywhere else. B. made it safely to A school and we have gotten to talk a lot! It is nice to hear his voice, but I keep writing him anyways...lol. I got so use to writing every night when I got home from work, it's just a habit now, I suppose. I miss him a lot. For awhile I felt like I was keeping my guard up, but not anymore. I was burned badly in my last relationship...and I haven't felt safe to date anyone in nearly two years. I loved my ex., we dated nearly four and a half years, and went through hell and high water. It wasn't all bad of course, it was one of those things of when it was good it was really good, and when it was bad it was terrible. When we broke up, I left that town and moved to L.R. with my family. Looking back I can see a hundred reasons why me and him weren't meant to be...we were both dreamers, both too passionate, we didn't balance each other very well. We both knew we wanted great things, but neither of us seemed to know what to do to make those things happen...and maybe we held each other back too. Since we parted we are both doing a lot better. I talked to a few people after him, but nothing serious. This is the first time in a long time that I actually feel like it may work, the first time in a long time that i've wanted it to work. So, some people think I am being irrational, or maybe too sudden, some think I shouldn't date someone that much younger than me....but B. and I are the only one's who can tell if this is right or not. I've been proposed to before, i've been engaged before, i've had opportunities to start a family long ago, but I didn't, something inside me just told me it wasn't the right time, it wasn't the right person....maybe because I was suppose to wait for B. So, we'll see how things go, I just pray for God's Will to be done...I will follow my heart, not everyone else's suggestions.
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