I'm Stronger Than They Think

What a day! I am happy I am off tomorrow. Work is stressin me out. I just got promoted a few months ago and sometimes I just hope that I am doing everything good enough, lol. Life has been crazy lately. My sister got ran off the interstate yesterday by some crazy person. She was trying to merge onto the interestate and some guy got mad because she got in front of him and he hit her car three times, running her into a bunch of trees. Luckily she was okay and her car wasn't hurt that much, but seriously. I've heard of road rage, but that is just ridiculous.
Anyways, things are going good everywhere else. B. made it safely to A school and we have gotten to talk a lot! It is nice to hear his voice, but I keep writing him anyways...lol. I got so use to writing every night when I got home from work, it's just a habit now, I suppose. I miss him a lot. For awhile I felt like I was keeping my guard up, but not anymore. I was burned badly in my last relationship...and I haven't felt safe to date anyone in nearly two years. I loved my ex., we dated nearly four and a half years, and went through hell and high water. It wasn't all bad of course, it was one of those things of when it was good it was really good, and when it was bad it was terrible. When we broke up, I left that town and moved to L.R. with my family. Looking back I can see a hundred reasons why me and him weren't meant to be...we were both dreamers, both too passionate, we didn't balance each other very well. We both knew we wanted great things, but neither of us seemed to know what to do to make those things happen...and maybe we held each other back too. Since we parted we are both doing a lot better. I talked to a few people after him, but nothing serious. This is the first time in a long time that I actually feel like it may work, the first time in a long time that i've wanted it to work. So, some people think I am being irrational, or maybe too sudden, some think I shouldn't date someone that much younger than me....but B. and I are the only one's who can tell if this is right or not. I've been proposed to before, i've been engaged before, i've had opportunities to start a family long ago, but I didn't, something inside me just told me it wasn't the right time, it wasn't the right person....maybe because I was suppose to wait for B. So, we'll see how things go, I just pray for God's Will to be done...I will follow my heart, not everyone else's suggestions.

I think it's Going to Rain...

So, I got to hear from B. He's been calling me whenever he can, his family is up there for the moment and he is trying to spend as much time with them as possible before he has to leave them again. He will be in A school soon, and I think he is ready to get there. I am ready to see him, though I have no idea when I will be able to get out there.

Anyways, I am sitting here in L.R., watching the storm clouds invade the blue sky...it's about to rain and I welcome it. It is way to hot here and the breeze feels amazing. I've been off work the last three days and it was enjoyable. I've started three new books, lol, all I do is read, I really gotta find another hobby. And I caught up on sleep. As much as I like having time off, it drives me crazy, I really enjoy working and feeling productive. And i'm afraid I may have three days worth of work there waiting for me when I get back, lol...geez. O well, it will be fine.

So yesterday while I was sitting at a red light at a very busy intersection, I saw a glimpse of a rainbow really far away. And I looked around at all the people driving and in a hurry around me and I don't think anyone else really saw it, it seemed like it was just for me to see and I needed that little bit of hope. I've been stressed out lately and I worry way too much, but for just a moment I felt peaceful, even with all the traffic and road rage that was around me. It just felt like God was saying, "it's going to be just fine Tiff, just relax!"

Well, I guess that's enough rambling for the moment. I am about to head back home and do something with the rest of my day, lol, not sure what yet, but i'm sure i'll think of something:) Hope everyone has a great week!

My First Thursday Five!

SO! I am STILL trying to get into blogging! I have soooo much to learn, but I thought i'd def. do the Thursday 5 since I have a lot to be thankful for :)

All you hafta do is post 5 things that have made you:

Happy

Giddy

Joyful

Excited

Appreciative

Then go to Mannland5 and post your link!

So let's give this a go :)

I am so very happy that I am finally off work and that I don't have to go back till next Monday since it's my 3-day weekend! This past week has been crazy and I have worked extra hard to get everything done so that I wouldn't have to worry too much and enjoy my weekend.

I have been so giddy because I should soon be getting a phone call from B., who is in the Navy and graduating from basic training tomorrow. It's been a little over a month and a half since we've actually talked and i've missed him like crazy...been counting down the days :)

I am Joyful because my best friend that i've known since I was 4 is getting married soon and I will be going to visit her soon to decide on bridesmaid's dresses!

I am Excited because I am reading a great book, Wicked, it really gives you a whole different view of the Wizard of Oz story!

And FiNaLLy, I am Appreciative of my family that is so amazing. They are always supportive of my decisions and even though they can sometimes be a little hesitant about some of the decisions I make, they always stand behind me 100% and I couldn't imagine being blessed with a better family.

So, there are mine, your turn now :) Everyone have an AwEsOmE weekend!!